A bit of indirect advice that I plucked from a story a friend told... she had said to her then boyfriend, now husband, "Why are you waiting to be unhappy?" (The circumstances are not really mine to share in this post, so I won't go into it, but rest assured that they are in fact ridiculously happy.) I relayed the same question to my good friend tonight, who was very much in need of the challenge. The point was that we worry ourselves to death, and hold back, and take decisions all based on a hypothetical "what if...?" when the good life is right there in front of us for the taking. And we're all weighed down with this baggage, from our own experiences and the experiences of those around us, that is often irrelevant to the present. We forget that outcomes are variable. That yes, consequences could be dire, but on the other hand, could lead to unimaginable, free bliss. (I'm trying to think of a word that's even stronger than bliss, but I can't think of one... I guess you get the point.)
It all boils down to vulnerability... which was an important element of my very first blog post. Overcoming fear of vulnerability was high on my list of priorities (a necessity, even) as I started this whole thing, and now that it has begun to melt away, I can see how I might be able to relate the process to life, and not just music-making. And as hard as it is to let that go, pride be my enemy, I'm excited that I might be able to do it. Little by little, yes, but freedom, knowledge, and understanding wait on the other side.
Here we go, Day 306: https://ia700800.us.archive.org/18/items/Improv61512/20120615175224.mp3