I'll be honest... after the year was up on this project, I lost a lot of direction, and found myself aimless in what I have been trying to do with my music. For many of us artists and musicians, it's hard to keep up momentum, because the yard stick by which we measure our accomplishments is so hazy. And also, it's difficult to come up with a concrete goal. And not just the immediate goals, but the ultimate life goal. Then, usually, the goal is something that doesn't actually exist in the present, but needs us to create it. And it follows that we have to determine the value of that goal, and decide how much time we will devote to it; and rest assured that dividing resources between that goal and our day-to-day existence creates much conflict, both personally and professionally. It's REALLY HARD.
And that's the objective
perspective. Throw ego and confidence into the equation, and then you've REALLY got a conundrum.
Anyway, I sat down the other day to discuss a "five year plan," and though there was nothing permanently decided, it was very clarifying for my own direction. Some things came out of my mouth that were like little light bulbs flickering on. (Cue triangle sound.) I know the feeling of stagnance is always looming, and ready to cloud us in a grey fog, but for the moment, I have my little torch back.
Here we go, Post-grad improv 3: https://ia600304.us.archive.org/4/items/Improv12112_697/20121201153656.mp3